On April 8, 2013 at 7:00 a.m. Jason and I walked into the hospital as a family of two. Almost 24 hours after we entered those hospital doors we finally got to meet our sweet girl at 4:59 a.m. on April 9, 2013. On April 12th we left the hospital as a family of three and our lives haven’t been the same since.
This past year has been amazing, wonderful, hard and exhausting yet I wouldn’t trade one single minute of it. I know being a stay at home mom isn’t for everyone but for me it has been the best and most rewarding experience of my life. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not always easy. We have days that are long and sometimes end with both of us in tears but we get through it. There are nights when I find myself counting down the minutes until bedtime only to find myself a little while later wishing she was awake so I can kiss her cheeks some more and feel her little arms hugging my neck.
My favorite part of the day is in the mornings when I go get Scottie out of her crib. The smile that greets me melts my heart every single time and up until a month ago we would sit in the rocker in her room as I nursed her (I stopped nursing completely when she turned 11 months). Now we go to the rocker and as I give her a bottle she periodically stops to give me another smile or a pat on my cheek. As soon as we come downstairs she waves hello to the dogs then I put her in her high chair to give her breakfast. Sometimes I am moving around the kitchen trying to get things done and other times I grab my cup of coffee and join her at the table.
I love doing and showing Scottie new things and I constantly find myself wondering what is going through her little head as she is playing. I have found that she isn’t the only one learning as she has taught me so much as well. She has taught me to be more present, to slow down and live in the moment. One year later I find those first few moths to be a blur and that makes me sad. I know it’s cliché but as with most clichés, it contains some truth, “The days are slow, but the years are fast”. I can already see how much truth is behind this statement.
I can’t possibly put into words how incredibly wonderful this past year has been. Today is bittersweet for me as I am seeing first hand how truly fast these years go by but I also know there is so much more to follow.
Happy Birthday Pumpkin. You have made your daddy and I so happy and we love you so very much!